Have You Asked God about It?

The men of Israel looked them over and accepted the evidence. But they didn't ask God about it. Joshua 9:14

It's hard to remain humble when you've just walked through the Red Sea without getting wet, and conquered Jericho , the biggest city in the Promised Land. Over-confidence can be deadly! Flushed with victory the Israelites thought they didn't need to consult God or listen to what He had to say concerning their next move. It's quite a story. The crafty Gibeonites realised they couldn't win against God's people so they sent out a team of negotiators to make peace with them. And it worked! Even though they were lying, Joshua presumed they were telling the truth and signed a peace treaty. It was one of the biggest mistakes of his life! From that day on the Gibeonites were a constant thorn in Israel 's side. Joshua lived to regret that he "didn't ask God about it." Fanny Crosby, the blind songwriter, wrote: "O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear. All because we do not carry, everything to God in prayer!"

It's frightening how easily we move from relying on God to relying on ourselves, or trusting in a method because it worked in the past, or doing what everybody else is doing. Hearing from God for yourself is what gives you the edge; leaving Him out is what gets you into trouble.

If you have a tendency to move too quickly or to operate in your own strength and skill, pray for a red light in your Spirit. Ask God to let you know when you're moving in your own will rather than in His. It'll save you untold heartache!

How to Pray When You are Worried

Are you worried today? Have you lost your peace of mind? Begin to pray this prayer until it takes root in your heart and becomes your fixed attitude:

"Father, You told me not to be afraid because You are with me, You will uphold me, and those who come against me will not succeed. You said no evil would come upon me, nor any plague touch my home for You have ordered Your angels to protect me. Psalm 91:10-11 You said when I walk through rivers of difficulty (when I'm 'in over my head') You won't let me drown, and when I walk through fires of adversity (when 'the heat is on') You won't allow me to get burned for You are watching over me.

You said no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I cannot keep the enemy's weapons from being formed, but I know You will keep them from prospering. You said if I ask anything according to Your will, You would grant my request.

You said when I walk in obedience before You I will be blessed when I come in and blessed when I go out, blessed when I lie down and blessed when I get up. Deuteronomy 28:6

You told me to give all my troubles to You and You would take care of me. 1 Peter 5:7

So here they are! Today I'm standing on Your Word. You said it! I believe it! That settles it! Amen."

Shirley's Johari Window

Arena (known to self and others) accepting, helpful, independent, modest, self-conscious, shy

Blind Spot (known only to others) able, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, dependable, friendly, giving, happy, idealistic, intelligent, kind, knowledgeable, logical, loving, mature, nervous, observant, organised, patient, quiet, reflective, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, sentimental, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, trustworthy, warm, wise, witty

Façade (known only to self)

Unknown (known to nobody) dignified, energetic, extroverted, ingenious, introverted, powerful, proud, sensible, tense

Dominant Traits

61% of people think that Shirley Moy is caring

All Percentages

able (2%) accepting (2%) adaptable (5%) bold (8%) brave (8%) calm (14%) caring (61%) cheerful (14%) clever (8%) complex (8%) confident (17%) dependable (5%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (41%) giving (14%) happy (5%) helpful (41%) idealistic (2%) independent (32%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (14%) introverted (0%) kind (29%) knowledgeable (14%) logical (2%) loving (20%) mature (8%) modest (11%) nervous (2%) observant (2%) organised (8%) patient (11%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (2%) reflective (2%) relaxed (5%) religious (20%) responsive (5%) searching (5%) self-assertive (5%) self-conscious (11%) sensible (0%) sentimental (14%) shy (8%) silly (2%) spontaneous (2%) sympathetic (2%) tense (0%) trustworthy (14%) warm (8%) wise (2%) witty (2%)

Description Breakdown (34 people)

strider thinks: friendly, independent, silly, caring, happy, relaxed.

Eric thinks: caring, helpful, self-conscious, searching, friendly, independent.

Lam Chee Chung thinks: shy, helpful, able, calm, modest, quiet.

yn thinks: calm, friendly, giving, caring, kind, mature.

Celina thinks: organised, confident, complex, idealistic, self-conscious, sentimental.

anonymous thinks: kind, helpful, knowledgeable, organised, calm.

herbert dsp thinks: friendly, independent, giving, caring, searching, spontaneous.

Cheah Keat thinks: loving, caring, helpful, giving, sentimental.

Ray thinks: wise, responsive, logical, trustworthy, confident, complex.

Minh Ha thinks: cheerful, mature, trustworthy, friendly, intelligent.

nexusrao thinks: helpful, religious, loving, caring, knowledgeable, bold.

Anonymous thinks: adaptable, confident, helpful, independent, trustworthy, cheerful.

Jeslyn thinks: friendly, caring, sentimental, organised, confident.

masy13 thinks: caring, helpful, independent, sentimental, accepting.

jonny thinks: independent, confident, brave, knowledgeable, responsive, patient.

cougar thinks: caring, friendly, intelligent, patient, loving.

larissa thinks: loving, clever, kind, religious, caring, friendly.

ronald koh thinks: knowledgeable, religious, self-assertive, adaptable, friendly.

Thierry thinks: loving, relaxed, caring, intelligent, modest.

Chaiyun thinks: caring, religious, trustworthy, helpful, self-conscious.

csti thinks: caring, dependable, helpful, kind, religious, warm.

jasNkoh thinks: confident, intelligent, calm, kind, helpful, reflective.

Anonymous thinks: independent, caring, cheerful, modest, bold, helpful.

Jason thinks: witty, independent, loving, self-assertive, caring, giving.

Mnemosyne thinks: caring, friendly, brave, happy, independent.

Pr.Sam thinks: caring, knowledgeable, modest, trustworthy, mature, helpful.

Serena thinks: complex, friendly, giving, helpful, kind.

anonymous thinks: nervous, sentimental, self-conscious, kind, brave, caring.

Waikuan thinks: calm, caring, loving, patient, sympathetic, helpful.

Soo Hsia thinks: caring, cheerful, clever, shy, warm.

jeff thinks: friendly, observant, intelligent, clever, kind.

Brandon thinks: religious, friendly, warm, kind, shy.

joe thinks: independent, kind, cheerful, patient, dependable.

Huey Meng thinks: independent, caring, religious, bold, friendly.

He made all things beautiful in His time

30th October 2007,

It's October, 2 more days then it'll be November and 2 more months it's 2008. Time flies.. ya ya ya, time really really flies. I really wish I can put a brake on the clock to pause...to stop it from clicking, or maybe reverse the time. But I know I can't! You can't redeem the time that has been lost! I always imagine how wonderful it is, if I have all the controls on time, whether to forward it, or to reverse it. Ya.. there's one old movie, about time machine.. really can't remember the title. Another recent movie is CLICK... just a click on the hand..

I guess I need some changes in my life. I'm in the comfort zone, doing everyday' mundane, routine.. not sure of the next direction, will I be staying in Penang for my whole life? Or, if there's opportunity to relocate, will I be willing to do so? ...Whar's next for me? Was talking to Dr Leong this morning,.. I shared that am not sure how long I'll be staying in GMC, things getting routine and mundane.. I should have been learning other new things?... Many things in my mind..about the future, about the right timing.. I need to rest assured of His omnipotent, and to rest assured that He made ALL things BEAUTIFUL in His TIME. He holds the time in His hands... A thousand days seem one day in to Him, He is the reason for the season..whatever season we may be in... He made all things beautiful in His time!

Lord, what's next for me? I believe You have a good plan for me, a plan to prosper me and not to harm me, a plan to give me hope and future. What's next, in this stage... am I done? If not, what's Your next? Help me to see a bigger pictures of what You have for me, help me to see that in the eyes of Faith, help me to discover Your mystery, help me to be in Your Plan...

God's Wisdom vs. Worldly Wisdom

30th October 2007,

4.30pm Tuesday. Today has been real busy, was on leave yesterday and the load just pick up. But am coping well.

Has been doing a lot of soul-searching for the past few weeks. Evaluating my reaction in the workplace, analyzing myself... my response towards offenses and criticism. Am actually not a person of strong character, strong character in the sense of iron-willed, but I can be determined if I want to do something that I feels right. It's a little mixture. I can also be very emotional..which is vey bad. I can mixed my emotion in how I handle issues in life, in work. And to some point I can be very defensive. As I analyzing myself, I realise that my character has changed over time. I don't know whether this is good, or this is normal. People said your temperament will change over time, depending on your dealing each day. What a complexity of human nature...

When I was young, I always feel like wanting to grow up fast into adulthood, but now.. as I'm aging, I wanna return to my childhood time. As I reflect back, maybe... I lost the 'innocent' of being a child, or 'childlikeness', or the "naive-ness". I hope it's not too late to realise this.. We're in the world but not of the world. We work not in human-system for God-system.. God's way of thinking is higher than worldly thinking. If worldly wisdom holds us back from God, it's NOT wisdom at all. We must be careful,..Ro 12:10 is very true, not to CONFORM to the standard of the world, but to be TRANSFORMED by renewing our mind.

A Woman's Secret .. and her Prayer

A Woman's Secret .. and her Prayer

There was once a man and woman who had been married for more than 60 years.

They had shared everything. They had talked about everything. They had kept no secrets from each other except that the little old woman had a shoe box in the top of her closet that she had cautioned her husband never to open or ask her about.

For all of these years, he had never thought about the box, but one day the little old woman got very sick and the doctor said she would not recover.

In trying to sort out their affairs, the little old man took down the shoe box and took it to his wife's bedside. She agreed that it was time that he should know what was in the box. When he opened it, he found two crocheted dolls and a stack of money totaling $25,000. He asked her about the contents.

"When we were to be married," she said,"my grandmother told me the secret of a happy marriage was to never argue. She told me that if I ever got angry with you, I should just keep quiet and crochet a doll."

The little old man was so moved; he had to fight back tears. Only two precious dolls were in the box. She had only been angry with him two times in all those years of living and loving.

He almost burst with happiness. "Honey," he said, "that explains the dolls, but what about all of this money? Where did it come from?"

"Oh," she said,"that's the money I made from selling all the dolls.

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Women will love this...

A Prayer

Dear Lord, I pray for Wisdom to understand my man;
Love to forgive him;
And Patience for his moods;
Because Lord,
if I pray for Strength,
I'll beat him to death.

It's Spring Time!

16th Octber 2007,


It seems like years since my last blog. Need to start back my blogging routine... else will slowly fade off. Many things happened since July till Oct. Were I to count it all, this blog will be real real lengthy. Life has been good thus far, sweet- sour experiences. Life journey on, a growing stage each day.. learning to lean on God's care, appreciating the new chapter of my life, learning to see God thru' each circumstances, always for our own good. It's not only easy for us to loose sight in hard times, but in good times if we're not careful.. it's so easy to slack away... into complacency and self-dependance. Watch and Pray.. so that we don't fall into temptation of the world, that we may be discerned to know the season in our lives... especially in the Spring time.


Today has been good, not much of chemo cases today coz my doc on half-day leave. Yeah.. I'm now doing chemo, not really doing recons, but mainly checking the regimen before it goes to patient. My pharmacist is pregnant, so she should not be exposed to the Cytotoxic drugs, especially over the initial 16 weeks. Other than that, work is routine - it's steady and well, all in all am in good control. Went for lunch with my ex-coursemate just now.. we chatted about our old buddies during schooling time. Seem like I've lost touch with a lot of my pals, most of them were married and with kids... yeah time flies... but over all God is good..and He never change, He's the same yesterday, today and forever... Even when many will fails, yet He will never fail us!

Long long week, busy day

4th July 2007,

5.15pm Wednesday. Am so tired, body aching. It has been a long long week and a busy speedy week. Nevertheless, am making time for blogging. Many things happened for the pass few weeks. Trying to recall and data it one by one.

I got my new Pharmacist. Her name is WK, and guess what? She is older than me, with many years experience in Managerial position. Today is her 3rd day of work, and she is catching on the job. I hope she able to cope with our culture and stay on. Just her first day of work, I already heard comments from my staff that all pharmacist in GMC will not stay long. Am very disappointed by what they said. Half truth. I really don't think I can cope without another Pharmacist.

Second things: Hmm.. I got an accident. I wouldn't say "accident", coz it's not really a major or serious stuff. I went for lunch with Mag and Charmine at OFA, suddenly as I was reversing my car to straighten my parking, a car Kia Chitra Black rushed thru and our cars touched. Nothing serious, just 2 lines of 3 inches scratches on the car, undented at all. And this lady was so unreasonable, asking for RM150 for just a minor scratches? That is just ridiculous! She threaten me that she will report police and I will get 2 summons for that if I don't pay. I was scared at that moment. But my senoir staff told me to report police, so I went. But am too silly that I forgotten her plate number. That should be the first thing I suppose to do in each accident. The Sarjan sat with us, trying to understand on the whole scenario, and he said, if I am the one that reverse I will be at fault. The next day the gal called me again- she trying to reduce to RM100, then RM85, but I sticked on RM75 only I will able to pay. So finally I paid her! After some thought, I feel so bitter, she is so unreasonable and ridicule me so many times, I should have paid her the amount. I feel that I am being bullied, silly Shirley. Am so angry! I learnt my lesson.

Weddings. Yeah, many weddings this year, my church have 7 weddings altogether. That excluding my other frens' wedding. Gosh, each time weddings I will always being asked to help in coordination. Never know how to reject people, don't wanna spoilt their weddings. But I have learnt a lot while helping in weddings. Some of my frens have fancy fancy ideas for their weddings. Some, marching in with Vespa, instead of normal walking. Some instead of lighting up candles during unification, they tie knot, or pouring 2 different colour sands into one bottle. Hahahah..so many ideas, my wedding can 'ciplak' the ideas. Nahh...my wedding gonna be just simple, no fancy fancy stuff.

I just back to work today. Supposed to be on-leave today, but cancelled my leave. I was hosting my ex-roomate from Sibu for a day yesterday, and they only stayed for a day, and went back earlier than the scheduled. It's tiring to be host. Driving them around, taking them to Bt Ferringhi night market till 1am. Wow, it's tiring because I don't really like to go around, or maybe I am really aging. The old bones can't stand the travel. Yet it's really wonderful fellowshipping with my fren, she's more than a sister to me.

It's July, the time flies, so quickly! So quickly. I wish I can just stop the time, to pause and reflect on my life. But it's just so quick, have I missed anything? How do you look at life? Other than work, church, family?.. Life goes on. I wish I can freeze the time, to take all the time I need to improve on what is lacking, to relearn new skills, to undo all the mistakes I've done. But I know I can't, what I can do now is to seize the day, just seize the day!

Diabetes Management Workshop, Crowne Princess Hotel

25th June 2007,


2.00pm, It's still my lunch time, so doing my blog before starting my work. Today am tired, and weary. Reached Penang last nite, about 9pm, then after dinner and packing my stuff, collapse into deep sleep. So tired.


Yesterday was stuck in KLIA for almost 5 hours. I was so confident that will able to get standby flight yesterday. My original departure is 7.15pm, but since nothing much in the conference, we went off after lunch. 5 hours time...even though tiring, but it's passed by very fast. Maybe because I didn't travel alone, was travelling with Mei Jen, the Head of Pharmacy in Loh Guan Lye Specialist Centre. This round workshop was very boring, the lecturers really boring, loaded us with "Educational and Scientific" lectures which is not really practical.


One surprise I wanna share here that's happening during the trip. There're 3 persons from penang attending the conference: myself, Mei Jen, and Ganesh from Pantai Mutiara. And I meet up with Ms Chua, from Fatimah Hospital, Ipoh. Usually whenever I go KL, I'll go out with my frens, Christian frens: Kawai, Angie, Lee Hua, Kenneth etc. But this round trip is different. I spent more time with Pharmacists, people I am not very close with. And thru this trip too, I get to know more about the persons. And guess what? I brought 3 frens to SIB Church. It's my first time attending the church, and 3 non-Christians were with me for the first time too. Isn't it cool?!!

Wow, I am tired, so tired today. Lack of sleep. Tonite will have meeting with Emmeline and Jerry on their wedding, am a Sub-corordinator again. Up to date, been co-ordinate for 4 times, plus with this one. I notice that weddings nowadays has become more 'fancy'. My fren spent more than RM55,000 just for a wedding. Gosh! Wedding is just for a moment, but marriage a lifetime. I wonder how my wedding will be? Oh oh..Shirley's Day-dreaming now...Hahahaha..

Future...Thinking much

22th June 2007,

7.00pm Thursday. Am in the hospital, yup yup..I know it's late, but am not going home after this. Gonna be attending a talk on 'L-Dopa induced Motor Complication", at E&O Hotel, so staying back, gonna be going after this blog. Life is routine, I always said that. Nothing much to update nowadays, probably I just not good in expressing my thoughts in words.

Life is good, and should be greater each day. A positive note for the beginning. We had our Department Meeting yesterday, and Magdalene has announced to the staff that she is leaving. People were guessing the reasons behind it, some said, maybe she got better offer, a better prospect, another jokingly said, "Is she gonna get married?". Mag was bombarded with a lot of questions: 'Why are you leaving?". And she answered, oh, am starting anew, to relocate to Perlis to start a mission work. Jaw dropped! Everyone just couldn't believe it. Why? Why she do that? Leaving everything behind to go for mission? Oh! Some arguements, won't say arguement, maybe discussion going round about the same topic. She must be crazy, why make such unwise decision? She can just take a few months off, and try out before giving up the job and 'burn the bridge'?? Why?

Magdalene's resignation made me think a lot. What about me? Will I leave everything? Answering the calls. What is God's calling for me? Do I have such faith to leave? Or maybe venturing into some other opportunities? Hmm...will I able to be bold to explore other opportunitues or, am I closed myself and settle for what I have now? Hmm..I start to put on my thinking cap. I've been here for 4 years huh? Right from my internship, this considered as my 1st job. So when I gonna relocate? I've shared this to my staff, Choong. She said- No need, here is good enough for a gal- stable and safe position. Will I ever make my first move to relocate? Yeah, when the times right, if I have a better offer, I don't mind. Or, *grinning* if I ever get married out from Penang, I really don't mind. I am not really a career women, really! Never thought of climbing corporate ladder, or even be a Head of Pharmacy. My ambition is to be a 'wife' and a good 'mother'. Ohh!!! Somebody laugh at me now. Yes, really! Believe me! My heart is for home and family.

I have a Volunteer Pharmacist working with me. Her name is Connie, and she should be in her 30's plus, with 3 children and a Korean husband. She has not been working for 9 years, since she married to Korea, she has been a wife and mother to her children. Now, she's here in Penang, she wants to update her knowledge and refresh up, so she's voluntering attached here to learn. Nice lady, she shared a lot with me, and guess what? She even planning to introduce her husband's cousin who's still single to me. She said..he's rich and looking for a wife outside of Korea. Gee...I really can't imagine that.

Life is good, and I've come to certain level: mid-life, to think what I really want in life. Am I wasting my life? Do I enjoying my life? Am I being purposeful? Ecclesiastes: Vanity, vanity, everything is vanity. . . To fear God and heed the Commandment is the life.

Nothing Less Than God's Best

12th June 2007,

5.00pm Tuesday. :PP Yeah, been So SO long didn't update my blogs. Life is just so so busy. Or maybe didn't really 'make' time for blogging. Was thinking better not to delay anymore, or else will forgotten what I wanna mark on my journey throughout the months.

Today I created a door-sign: "SORRY...REAL BUSY, DO NOT DISTURB" and hang it on my door. Yeah, got to do that, or else too many people to entertain, my work will not get done. Work is alright, today I received a call from someone saying that my ex-boss will be joining Mount Miriam this Monday, and will be the Head of Pharmacy there. At that point when hearing such news, am pretty threaten, am afraid he will pull my staff to join Mt Miriam, but after thinking a while, I don't think my staff will join there. I am proudly said Gleneagles is a very good company, much better benefit compared to other company, and moreover I'm such a good boss. Right?! I think many will agree with me on that. :PP

Magdalene has hand over her resignation letter. She confirmed leaving the coming Sept 9th or even earlier, and I will be interviewing another gal this coming Friday. She's previously working as Regulatory Pharmacist with Bayer with Managerial Position, and now applying here. And furthermore, she's much older than me. Quite scare, a thought comes in, that she may threathen my position here. Oh...how foolish Shirley can be, thinking such things, an insult to God, insecurity? Position? Oh, I should look to God, He is the rewarder of all things. I'm secure in Him, and in Him alone. Gonna take hold of that.

Just now my coursemate called, she thought I'm gonna resign. I told her no, it's wrong rumour. I will still stay, until when? I really don't know, until when? What is my future like? What I'm gonna be doing 10 years down the road? What is my plan maybe 5 years from now? Oh...I really don't know. I am doing my best in work, in family, in church. Other than that, I really don't know.

My future is in Your Hands Lord. I claim on Your promises, You always have a good plan for me, to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and future. I commit my desires to You, nothing less than Your best. I hold on to You, knowing every good and perfect gift is from You, and Yours is the best, nothing less than Your best. Lord, I'm not gonna give my soul to another..only You deserve my highest praise.

May's Happenings

21st May 2007,

5.15pm. Monday blues. Today was extremely hectic day. Almost the whole day in the lab- training on Cytotoxic Drug Recons. Has been real long didn't update with the blogs. Many traveling, and busy busy schedule. Went to KL for MPS AGM Seminars, at Crowne Princess Hotel for the weekends, then a week after fly to Kota Kinabalu for Pharmacist Asthma Workshop. Stayed in Tanjung Aru, with huge room, nice place but too but, am traveling alone and staying alone. A week after, went to Johor, stayed at Zone Regency Hotel with Celina. Tiring, exhausted yet learned a lot, interesting updates and meeting up with fella-Pharmacist from different states was pretty beneficial experience. Hope after this won't have much of traveling. Yup, I dislike traveling, and usually require much replenishment pre and post-travel. Guess am aging, body not able to cope with the change of environment.

Life was well, am living well, with routine and a few ups and downs. May is grooming month, and a special month of me growing another year old. Believe it or not, Yes.. I am in my 30'S. Many said my look doesn't reflect my age, I was guessed to be younger by 5 years. Some said I look like 27 some said hmm....25. So I should be happy, looks younger :PP Hmmm..this year not much of celebration. Was in KK during my BD, after back Pg, was blessed with many friends wishing me, and putting up a lunch-date with me. Usually every year BD I'll pampered myself with grooming and buying more new clothes. This year without exception, I finally bought for myself a Nokia 6300, slim type, with MP3 and 2 Megapixel Camera. I am rewarding myself. Am happy, has been many many many years with my old hard-knock phone, now some change- stepping up the standard.

As for spiritual side, I guess I'm probably still in honey-moon stage: Autumn? A relax and cool state? Will see how it grows. My CG multiplied last 2 weeks. I did not attend the multiplication service, was in Johore that time. The new CG which I belong to, is called "Shekinah" CG, lead by Maribec (Becky), my Phillipino's fren. The new venue for the CG is at my home. Ya Ya, my HOME, Shirley's House! Cool isn't it? My house has always been place for fellow Christian to meet up and shared the Word. I do hope I can commit to the little that I have.

Work wise: good, am handling well, have few trainees with us, hope with the new CDR setup will get us going somewhere. My relationship with Felix had been restored. Don't know how it happened, but we can talk more now. Although not as much as last time, but at least we talk, and he's in the same CG as mine. I'm moving forward, with what I have, with what my hands hold- am moving on. Even though the road is winding, and the trying timeis hard sometimes, I gonna trust Daddy, who hold my hands in this race that I run.

Daddy, I love You. If You asked me "How much do you love me?" I don't dare to say "This much or that much" How can I measure my love? But Daddy, you know my heart, You know that I truly love You. I may fail many times, or turn my own way, or even holding on to my own strength and effort, but Daddy You never fails, NEVER! Your love extends to the heaven...How great is Your love Lord. Daddy, forgive me, how many time have I broken Your heart, forgive me, and lead me back, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. I surrender Lord, grant me the knowledge of Your will, and the wisdom and the Will-Power to go on. Am tired, really tired! But am holding on to You Daddy!

THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT

THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation I asked him if he had a doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.

I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease. As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late.

He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him. "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?"

He smiled as he patted my hand and said. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is."

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life."

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

April Fools, May Blooms

25th April 2007,

5.59pm Wednesday. Very inconsistent blogging. Has not been regular nowadays, maybe very lazy, or very buzy, or just didn't make time to do so. Today is alright. Wednesday usually don't have much patients, and patient load seems to be going down. Today has been bombarded with a lot sales people, asking for sales to hit their month quota. Has been very kind initially when I started in this position, but now it's too much, and I am not obligated to do so. Learning on the inventory and purchasing stategies, and discover some world's 'darker scheme'. The grass not always green the other side. Being a Christian employee, how do we response to such scheme.

Not much of traveling early year 2007, but mid-year a lot of workshop going on. Just back from KL, attended MPS 40th AGM Seminar held at Crown Princess Hotel. I've gain more not just in updates, but a lot more. Usually going to KL for seminar, always been tiring, one of the reason because I don't like travelling. But I gain more, with knowledge updates, and also meeting friends. To my surprise, this trip had been really fruitful one, meeting up with so many friends. Unknowingly, to really count, yeah..I think I have more friends in KL than back in Penang, or at least in KL, I have broad group of friends, not just Christian, ot church friends, but also non-Christian.

I reached hotel on Friday morning 11am, then meet up with Kenneth in KLCC for lunch (my CA President, who taught me how to play guitar during my campus life). Then went back hotel for seminar. Very informative workshop, covering wide scope from STENTing, to O&G new Cervical Cancer Vaccine, to Basal Insulin Therapy. After the seminar, I skip the dinner provided, and meet up with Kawai, Alicia and Angie for dinner at Madam Kwan Restaurant. After that, went Parkson to buy gift for Kenneth's BB, BB Joshua Lim. Then back home, then went out again with Harvey and his wife Aggie for Starbuck, that's my Friday Nite.

Saturday morning- continue the lectures, then back room to have 1 hour nap, then 6pm take a LRT from Ampang to Kelana Jaya station. Took me less than 30mins, great! Meet up with my Juniour Pharmacist who's getting married in Sept, his husband-to-be, and the Bestman (Eric's cousin). Went to Tropicana for seafood and crabs! Yum yum! Then go Starbuck for minum, while waiting for Kenneth to be back home. After that went to Kenneth's house: Kelana Putri Apt, and visit BB Joshua and Sarah. Great to catch up after such long time, then after that Eric and Lee Hua brought me to Bangkok Jazz in Raja Chulan. Stay there for an hour plus, then they fetch me home- That;s my whole Saturday!

Sunday: Early morning up for quick breakfast, the check-out and go to Ampang LRT to catch train to Taman Bahagia- but waited for almost half an hour, and surely gonna be late. Reach Taman Bahagia about 9am plus, waited for Kawai to fetch me to church. Church: Peter worship, Ps Joseph preached on Ruth 1, explaining details on the meaning of each names. Service ended about 12.30pm, followed by 3rd Anniversary Lunch. Meet up with Alice, a nurse who work in Tung Shin Hospital. We had short chat about Chemotherapy. Then 2pm, meet up with Jenny and Kok Keong, went to KL Sentral (Starbuck again!) for a drink. I gave Keong Zyban, a new non-additive anti-smoking medicine, and counsel him on setting up Quit Date and the common side effect. Then, 4pm, took KLIA Express to KLIA, oh so tiring! Boarding, and waited for the plane to depart- then suddenly got annuncement plane got technical problem unresolve- passengers to change flight. Delayed for an hour, then finally got into new plane- and reacg home about 7.30pm. Dinner with mum and Celina, then watch DVD then ZZzzz. Oh..so tiring, but that's my day! May-4th gonna be flying to KK then the week after to Johor. Hope that's the end of my traveling, but I'm sure there will be more...so let's see how' things.

Wind of Change

Life is just so unpredictable, a sudden winds of change, a sudden blow, it's very fragile and short. Very weak and very much unpredictable, beyond our comprehension, beyond our expectation, how it happen, why it happen, how things to be arranged. So many unknowns and so many hurdles that we required to pass through. After another hurdles, comes another one, seems that life challenges is just unending. Some seems to run fast, strong enough to jump up the hurdle, higher level was set infront after the another, to test the strength of the atheletic. Some that is not much well-trained will fall easily. In such race, some speed very fast, some just walk slowly, some barely even can crawl, but all persevere on for the sake of the ending-line, maybe some looking and focused on the prize that set before them. Some half way through just give up running, some fall many many times, yet pick themselves up and dust themselves down and continue on the journey of race....

In our Christian Journey, it's different...we fail, we fall, we run so slow, but what counts is the determination and perseverance not to give up. It's more of the power and strength above that guide us through the journey. Our aim is not so much of the prize, but the prize heavenward in Christ. But a lot time we give up and say.."I just can't anymore, the race is to hard for me, I am not capable of running, I'm tired...I don't think I can". But then, after some struggles, we rise up again, we find our anchor of hope, we find the strength and help to rise up. To rise up everytime we fall. How? How to rise when we fall again, and rise up and fall again and again? How wretched and so weak and fragile, but how? Let us not focus on our self, on our weak point, let us lift up our eyes on the hill, where does our help comes from, but the Maker of Heaven and Earth. Why is it so frequently that we lost that focus that the Lord of Heaven and the Earth, the one that lead us, the one that form us, the one that Omnipresence and available, the strength is free, how to draw strength from Him? How to die to the self and stay pure, how to rise above our troubles and stay victoriously and pure before Him?

Yeilding to the Lord, meditating in His Word and His Presence, ask for insight, listen and do it. Appy the Word with deed, action, draw the strength from Him, His Word to sooth us and open way through the narrow road. That's what we got to do? Not by might and not by power, but by the Spirit of the Lord. It's not that we able, He ENABLE us. To Him be the Glory both now and forevermore.....

Lost and Found

26th March 2007,

1.30pm Monday. It's lunch time and I was really hungry, not able to skip today's lunch even though I've taken breakfast earlier this morning. Today was alright, was working on Training Program for CDR. Another 2 to train up. Almost done, good job Shirley! Giving a little pat on my shoulder :PP Our new setup gonna be completed soon.

Yup, lost and found. Have you ever experience your treasured possesion being lost and couldn't able to find back? Let's imagine how it feels: a dear friend gave you a present, and you didn't use it, then out of sudden, you use it, and then gosh..it's gone, you've LOST it! How will you feel? Something dearest to you, and out your carelessness, it's GONE, it's gone! How does that work? Urrrgghhhh..!! Just careless, you must be cursing yourself: How could that happened? Where is it? How come it's just gone, a twinkling of an eye, it's gone. Sob sob sob!

That's what happened to me yesterday. I had a gift from a close fren- a pearl braclet, and it's the first day I am wearing it. Yup, that Sunday, I thot of wearing the pearls braclet, with pearl ear rings, thot that's nice, suit my blouse, and feels nice, I looked gorgeous. It's okay to dress nice to church, I am not wrong yeah?!! Woke up early, dressed up, and still have time before church starts. So I drove to Car Wash Shop beside Macro, and put my car there, and walk happily to church. Half way through, met Becky and Edmund, my Phillipino's frens and they asked me to join them for breakfast. I agreed, and join for chat but not eating coz I've taken my breakfast at home. Half way talking, I realised my braclet is gone! Oh Lord! How can this happen? What that I've done wrong to deserve that? I was so sad, and off I go, trying to reverse back to see if the braclet drop anywhere. Trying to figure out, where it possibly go, making my way to Macron, looking down at the road side, it's like taking a magnifying torch..trying to scan for the precious pearl.

I couldn't able to control my feeling, and a tears just gushed out my swollen eyes. Again, Shirley crying like a baby. It's like my heart broken into pieces, all shattered...I prayed, Oh God, please help me to find the pearls. And I search and search and search..few rounds. Like a little baby crying and walking around searching for mummy. I couldn't believe my eyes when I finally went back to the Car Wash place, and here lies my braclet. My whole face lifted up, and I just smile with such unspeakable joy.

It's just so unpredictable. I've learned that the more I wanna keep something, with earthly posession, if God don't will it, I will loose it. Nothing is permanent in this world- earthly posession, our wants, our need? In a twinkling of the eyes, you will loose it.

Jim Elliot's quote is very relevant. "He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose."

Trusting God Even When Life Hurts

14th March 2006,

Wednesday, 1.55pm, it's lunch time, and I skipped lunch again. No wonder I can loose weight. Just now Dr. Sim Joo Seng passed by Pharmacy, and said that I am getting smaller. Others said the same too. Not sure whether it's a good news, or not, some said I look good plum, some said slimmer nicer. Am not purposefully on diet, just that don't feel like eating or going out to get food during lunch, so rather stay in my room enjoying the air-con. Lazy bum huh?? Pharmacy was normal. Work load has slowly increasing, more patients coming to see doctors after the long holidays. Pharmacy Queue System has been up. It's a Basic Edition, Window based, but not a Web-based. Not on SQL, so a lot of limitation. Only serve a very basic function, so it's very difficult to customize it according to our process.

Last night I attended SOD (School of Discipleship), on the topic: "Trusting God Even When Life Hurts". Pastor Sam was the speaker. The class was real good, I learned a lot. If God is really in control, why did He allow this to happen to me? Adversity and suffering frequently raises such questions in the mind of Christians. This course explores the reality of God's sovereign control over creation and people, as well as His infinite wisdom and unfailing love for His own. It also deals with the Christian perspective of pain and suffering.

There're 3 Chapters:
(1) Can You trust God?
(2) God's Sovereignity
(3) God's Wisdom and Love

There're 2 course objectives: At the end of the lessons, we will learn to trust God in painful times, so that:
1) We can glorify God
2) We can benefit from the experience

So, can you trust God? This question has two possible meanings:
1) Do YOU have a relationship of trust with God? --> Do YOU trust God?
2) Is HE dependable in times of adversity? --> Can He be trusted?
As Christian, surely our answer will be: "Of course He is trustworthy, He is God the supreme!". But then if the question is this: "So, can YOU trust God?". Pause..Not many will say Yes! So, it's YOU..it's US! Are we just obeying Him or are we trusting Him? Is it easier for us to trust God or to be obedient? It is just as importartant to TRUST God, as it is to OBEY Him. Distrust is just as bad as disobedience.

When we disobey God, we defy His Authority amd despise His Holiness.
When we fail to trust God, we doubt His Sovereignity and question His Goodness.

When our picture of God does not match our experiences of God, we CEASE to trust Him.
How are we painting the picture of God in order for us to trust God? It fall back to our relationship with God. What are the area in my life that I'm not 100% trusting God on? Career? Finance? Life partner? How this reflect in my life, and why can't I trust Him? A lot of thought provolking questions. 3 essential truths about God that we need to graps:
1)God is completely sovereign
2)God is infinite in wisdom
3)God is perfect in love
God in His LOVE always wills what is best for us. In His WISDOM, He always knows what is best, and in His SOVEREIGNITY, has the power to bring it about.

The assumption of many is: If God is both powerful and good, why is there so much suffering and pain in the world? Therefore, God must be either all-good but not all-powerful, or all-powerful but not all-good. he cannot be both. What should be Christian's perspective of God?
2 picture we need to paint in our heart: (1) God is Good (2) God is Powerful, that makes the doctrine of God's providence.

God's providence is His constant care for and His absolute rule over all His creation for His own Glory and the good of all His people -->God Sustaining and Governing power.

Daddy, You are always good, and all powerful. Help me to trust you daily, not only during good times, but also trying times. Help me to praise You and give thanks in every circumstances. Amen!

The week gonna end soon, Praise God!

23rd February 2007,

4.15pm Friday. Yay yay...the week gonna be over. Can't wait for it to end, counting every second. Today work has picking up, not that busy, and not that free. Things run pretty smooth today. Magdalene still on-leave, gonna be back next week. So once she comes back, I'll need to train up Raz. for CDR.

Today I am happy. Strange isn't it? Sometimes I complained so much about my staff and work, sometimes I just wanna praise them, and hug them and love them. Well, I guess there're always bitter sweet experience. 3 years in the Management, learned to see things in different perspective now. We going to have Pharmacy-Steamboat this coming 27th Feb. I attended OT's Steamboat Party today- they invited the HODs and few more Drs. Hokkien said "Lau juak, lau juak" means 'meriah meriah'. So we feel like that, hmm...okay, we can have our own Steamboat Party too, just for ourself, for fellowship and more bondings. Hmm..you know what? Gleneagles has the most old staff compared to other private hospital. Our turnover rate is not as high as others. So, there must have a reason for such- better benefit? Better flexibility? Better Management? Better pay? Yet, human is human, we are just 'not enough'. Never enough lo..how high we climb never enough. So I always tell my gals- to be contented, GMC is the best, can't find any elsewhere.

Today seems good- I walk out from time to time to chat with the staff. Sometimes I can be very sour-face, but I think I'm getting better: more cheerful nowadays. So my gals has learned to see Shirley's mood, but for the past few weeks, I'm more of cheerful smiling. There's always time for everything, so I am learning to be flexible when necessary, and strict when needed. Slowly building up my own different style of leadership. I'm more of 'Soft-Leadership", don't usually 'hentam' people :PP

I praise God that I can be who I am today because of His Grace. He is just so patience with us, not wanting anyone to perish but all to have eternal life. He gives life, and life to the fullest. I don't know what the future holds, whether I will still be with this job few years down the road, whether I will still be in Penang, or what happen next? Taking one thing at a time, walking in step with Daddy, I will surely not be lost.

Chinese New Year Updates'

21st February 2007,

Wednesday, 4.30pm. It's time to go back. 3rd day of CNY, already start working. Hmm..but today pretty slow, not much of patients. Thank God not too tight. I have 5 staff away: 3 On-Leave, another 2 on Emergency Leave.

Just now washed my fish after the long PH. Very smelly and dirty. Guess I'm not a patience person, realise that it's not that easy to rare fish. Was complaining to my staff why the fishes so much of shit, aduh! Maybe I feed them too often, 3 times a day. Now trying to cut to twice a day, hope won't get dirty that fast. I think the new filter doesn't really work, or probably too small to filter up the water.

CNY was pretty quiet this year, nothing special this year. And it's so fast, the holidays were so fast finished, and now here I am, working. But I'm okie, nothing much to do at home too, just eat, sleep and watch TV. I think it's good for me to start work early.

1st day of CNY: I was ushering, now am considered a Penangites', and usually during big festive season, a lot people will be going back. We have more outstation members, so usually towards long holidays, 50% of the members will be away. After church, rest a while, then visit Aunt in Penang. Then, followed by my coursemate. At least we make time to do visitation every once a year. After the visitation, I then went out with a group of frens for a drink- Jimmy, Joanne, Felix, Angeline, Becky. We went to "Torch"- it's some sort of pub, with music and place for pool and dart. Yes, I drank alcohol, 4 bottles usually alright for me, but this time round I can't take it so I vomitted. Feel very bad, no self-discipline, always give in to alcohol! Notty Shirley!

2nd day of CNY: Tiring but interesting. Went back hometown, a Day-Trip. Manage to visit 2nd Aunt with colon cancer, and 5th Aunt. Manage to meet up ex-Form Six frens for reunion. Even tho' short, but it's good time catching up.

3rd day of CNY: Is a hibernate day. Was at home the whole day, until a fren called up to yum cha late at night. Went out with Benji and Angeline for a drink at SG-2. Our discussion usually go around the same topics- BGR again. Never ending and never out-to-date topic. Discussion about which guy or giral in EPCC that we like. Hmm...okie la.

Gonna be going back after this blog. 4th day CNY: WORK! Pretty boring...not much happenings, looking forward for the coming weekends!

Valentine's Day - 12 red roses

14th February 2007,

5.15pn Wednesday, yeah, Valentine's Day and I'm still in the office. Has not been blogging, so thought of blogged before shut down. Today is a busy day, not because high patient load or problems arising, but busy because occupied with other matters. Was cleaning up my fish tank, spring cleaning the "Fish Home" before New Year. Bought a new filter for my fish, hopefully that will require less frequent cleaning. I've lost 2 sucker fishes. Some said they died coz I change water too frequently and they don't have fungus to eat, so "mati kebuluran". Other said because I put too much of green medicine inside, so they can't take it, and died. I can't bear with death anymore. I really don't want to see my other fishes weaken. God, pls protect them, and prolong their life.

Today is Valentine's Day, and 3 of my staff received gift from their loved one: 2 flowers, and one teddy bear with LOVE. Each year Valentine, I'll usually be on-leave. No important reason to be on-leave, but just to be away and home with family, enjoying the love at home. Today is different, because I have Management Meeting to attend, so have to work.

To my very surprise, this year is the ever 1st time I receive flower for Valentines. It's dark red roses, symbolise sincerity and courtship, and 12 stalk, means completeness. It's delivered to my room, but I wasn't around to collect it. I was away... somewhere in the hospital for meeting, then suddenly, when I open my door, there lies the sweet roses.

If you asked me what is my feeling, I would say, of course la..yeah..I am happy, pampered with sweet roses. Yet, I was also worried at the same time, when I look at the card. I don't really expect 'my friend' to send my flower. And to my surprise, the night after that he actually confess to me that he likes me. I was speechless, don't know how to answer him. To one, it's a nice feeling, an experience of being woed and chase after... as if I'm so special diamond. Duhhh......yeah, it's nice feeling, but it will be nicer if you able to reciprocate the feeling. But if you don't, then that's another story. My staff saw the flowers and teasing me, trying to dig who is the person. I was just quiet, not able to reciprocate the feeling - definitely not him. So, are we gonna remain as friends after all that happened? I dunno, depends how he take it.

February's Happenings

3rd February 2007,

1.00pm Saturday. Gonna go off after this blog. Chinese New Year is just around the corner, and the weather is so hot, dry wind makes my lip crack....Pain pain. Was not feeling well couple days ago. Was on leave on 31st Jan, to avoid jam, and to take the opportunity to buy Baskin Robbin. 1st Feb was Thaipussam- so I actually have 2 days OFF and should be getting sufficient rest to rejuvenate from the work fatigue. Yet, this 2 days so many things to do. I had "dim sum" with mum early morning, so wake up early as usual, no extra slumber, then 'marketing' and paint house. Hmm..it seems that I take such a long time to complete my house improvement yeah? Gee..taking things slowly, started painting during Christmas last year, then subsequent weekends, then delayed till last week- finally completed my painting. It's not an easy job, now I can understand why "Painting-Charges" so high- with all the sweat and climbing up and down, scrapping put the old paint, cleaning the surface before applying new paint- indeed lot of work. At least the experience created a quite-well result (minus the un-even colour at different site :PP)

Today's work was alright, training Raz for Chemo preparation. The CDR building almost completed, the flooring was done, partitioning and the wiring- just a few more touch up on paint, and furnishing here and there. Took Raz to see the place just now, at least preparing my staff to be excited and have better expectation on new venture. Magdalene gonna resign soon. She shared this to me last 2 weeks. I was pretty sad, with her leaving us, I gonna be the only Pharmacist and Oh..I can't imagine how am I gonna cope with this. Magdalene is a Christian, from Hope Church, and her reason of resigning is to relocate to Perlis to start a Christian Outreach there. Was quite encouraged by her sharing and sacrifice to take hold of God's calling for her life at this point. Wanting so much to convince her to stay, but hearing her reason, I know deep in my heart nothing is more important that God's calling.

Seeing others' life makes me ponder my situation. Had been here for 4 years plus. Is this what God wants in my life? Has He finished with me here? Or what's next? Lord, lead me- only to where Your plans and will are, lead me!

Pharmacy Feast, a successful one

(From top pic: Razliza, Pharmacy Assistant and Sally, Dispenser; From 2nd top picture, Dr. Sim Joo Seng, and Shirley :PP)

(Lot's of Foods...but this satay too burned, 'tak laku')

(1st Picture:From left: Dr. Ooi Kah Chuan: O&G, Boey: Senior Dispenser, Dr. Suresh:O&G, Magdalene:My second Pharmacist, Dr. Oh Ewe Lik: ENT-he's the best doctor, Dr. Leong Kin Wah:Haemato-Oncologist, Hiding-Dr. Lai, Ophtamologist and one of GMC's Director)

(2nd Picture: Charmine, my ex-Pharmacist and Shirley)

Lot's of food: KFC, finger licking good!!

(From left: Matron Lim, my Director of Nursing, Ivan Loh, my Finance Controller, Grace Tan, my HR Manager)

24th January 2007,

6.30pm Wednesday evening. The Pharmacy Luncheon is over, praise God it runs smoothly and successfully, thanks to the helps from everyone. Can see that people are really putting effort into this to make it a success. We invited our consultants, HODs and a few more other staff who deal with us in workplace. We ordered many varieties of food. Initially it doesn't seem to be enough, but thank God that He multiplied our food- till it's overflowing, MORE THAN ENOUGH! Praise God! Wow, am just so tired, but yet am just so excited and glad we finally made it.

I always mentioned to my Pharmacy Staff: "Pharmacy-Boleh", it's just the matter whether we wanna do it or not. And we made it again- treating the VIPs with food, and fellowshipping, building relationship with one another.

Today many people said I've lost a lot of weight. I did not measure, not sure is it true. But many people said it's very significant, my body size seem smaller. Hmm...thanks to my work, and by skipping lunch everyday- probably that contribute to the changes. For good? Dr. Chin said I look better with plum, more cute. He jokingly said my "cute-meat" has disappeared. Dr. Simon said that too :PP Hmm...well, I don't intentially wanting to be on diet, but it just happen..dunno why, maybe stress :PP

Oh dear..I'm just so tired. Not able to sleep well last nite. A lot things running through my mind. Gonna go back home after finish this blog. Hope for a better week ahead. Oh yeah, I went to Ipoh last week, celebrating a close friend's BD. Has been quite frequently travel to Ipoh nowadays- next month will make a trip there too, for a fren's wedding at Buntong. Pr. Sam called last Monday. He asked why didn't see me in church on Sunday? Wondering whether I'm ok. Hmm...paisey, didn't tell him I'm outstation.

Ok, guess I got to make a move, it's late, and mummy waiting for me for dinner. Till then!

Fish Fishes, more fishessss...

16th January 2007,

5.30pm Tuesday. Here am I, still staying in my room, in the hospital. I have new pet..... hehehe...If you walk in my room now, you can see an aquarium with lots of fishes. Yeah yeah...of course I love fish, first time rare fish-quite blur, not sure able to take care well. My staff don't want to keep it outside, so have to put in my room and do my own. Hmm..let's see, I have 13 fishes...Ooops, nope :P 15 fishes altogether, 2 just joined the new family this afternoon.

1 White Fish (not sure the name)
2 gold fish
1 white fish with orangy spot on the head
2 black sucker fish
2 small orangy tetra
5 small neon tetra with flourecent green line on the top body
2 typical gold fish with big tummy (new intake: bought by Camelia)
TOTAL: 15 fishes

Today is the 2nd day they stayed with me. All behaving well. But one has some problem: swimming upside down in circular motion, not sure if he got disease or hurt somewhere in his body while we transfered him to the pool. Not able to swim straight but turning around backwardly like performing circus. My staff said he got a 'stroke' need to go for physio :P hehehe...and we named him "Ah Wai" (means cornering in Hokkien). Not sure how long this babe will hold his breath. Pray God will preserve this tiny life.

HOC has been shifted to 3rd Flr, and the CDR area has shifted to Dr. Leong's room. Gonna be staying there temporary, hopefully in another 2 months will move to new house. Can't wait. Meantime, got to start training my new gals. I just hired 2 Malays Pharmacist Assistant: Emi and Siti. So far they're performing well. Have to spend time to mentor them. Oh...many many things to do, just need to plan my time properly and prioritized. Oh Lord, I need Your wisdom!

Abundance CG Christmas Celebration Clips

Ladies

Name tags forming a cross

Shirley and Godbrother, Andrew

Pretty gals

Coring, my trainee (left) and Fiona, NovoNordisk (right)

Cameraman and Shirley

A New Season, a new makeover

3rd January 2007,

5.45pm, Happy New Year!!!! Yeah..It's 2007! My blog will continues with much better sharings, a more positive perspective. Today is 1st day of work in 2007, and praise God..Pharmacy Reno has completed with wonderful final outcome. Compared to previous front-counter with thick glass and barriers separating staff and patients, now the new setup totally the other way round. "Open Counter" concept, with flourecent lighting, and multicolour fabric backdrop, clean white marble as table-top..wow, it's just awesome! It looks pretty cool, very high class, friendly and esthetic!

That's the new beginning for the Pharmacy. I hope the staff will appreciate the change and the comfort, thus able to perform better, improving our service. A start of New Year, and praying for a better year ahead. So, now Pharmacy Reno has finished, left with another project- CDR Reno, and preparing staff for CDR. Pretty interesting, yes..I love the job I'm doing, excluding the 'company politics and system setbacks'. I'm happy today, and hopefully I'll be happy and excited for more in days ahead- life in GMC. Unless the Lord moves me somewhere, I doubt I'll be relocating. But everything is just uncertain, only entrust the days ahead to Lord's hands, trusting He has every good plans for us.

Spent the holidays in Ipoh last week. Killing 2 birds with 1 stone. Or maybe 3 birds :PP 1.) Manage to visit Cindy and her mum at Kuala Kangsar. Her house full of Ikea's furniture, very nice and neat. According to Cindy, her brother is the one who decorated the house. She's trying to introduce her brother to me :P We had dinner there and spending time with Cindy's mum.
2.) Staying with Andrew and visiting Gavin. Also get to know little babies (Benjamin and Jason), spending time with Andrew's parents, and Gavin. It's indeed sweet experience. Will not elaborate much here.
3.) Have a rested holidays. This year was the ever 1st year spending countdown with frens (usually every year we have WatchNite Service in church, but this year exceptional)

New Year Resolutions. For the past 2 years I did not write any resolution, getting some phobia making resolution which ended up with not so good endings. But this year the list not gonna be long, only a few, very few items that I've offered to the Lord. Man can plan but ultimately it's the Lord that who wills it. May my plans and heart desire be in in His perfect plan. Trusting that every good and perfect gifts is from above. Only He wills..Not my will be done, but Your will be done, Your ever perfect will, Your best.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3: 5-6

I am blessed with the sermon I heard during my visit in Ipoh. I attended First Assembly of God, Jalan Kampar (Andrew's Mum's Church) which was in Cantonese. Believe it or not, yeah..I attend Cantonese Service and am so blessed with the sharings. Even though I can't understand every word, but I able to grasp the main message. It's about living with "Heart of Dependancy". Pastor Joyce described Scripture Verse taken from Jeremiah 17 and James 4

Jeremiah 17:5-8

5 This is what the LORD says:

"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,

who depends on flesh for his strength

and whose heart turns away from the LORD.
6 He will be like a bush in the wastelands;

he will not see prosperity when it comes.

He will dwell in the parched places of the desert,

in a salt land where no one lives.
7 "But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,

whose confidence is in him.
8 He will be like a tree planted by the water

that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;

its leaves are always green.

It has no worries in a year of drought

and never fails to bear fruit."

James 4:13-16

13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins. Living with the heart of dependecy..Who can we trust but the Lord? Where does our hope and helps come from but the Father of Life, the Creator of all things? Where else can we go, for You Lord holds the Word of Life.

Oh Lord, thank You! Thank You Daddy for guiding me thru the Year 2006. Thank You for your invisible hands, guiding me thru' the year victoriously. Oh Lord, how foolish are we who refuse to follow you. Oh Lord, forgive our iniquities and flesh of running to the things of the world which is just temporary, just meaningless. Strengthen my faith Lord, to follow You, to depends on You in every circumstances. Stregthen my heart, if anytime I feel I can't do it- help me to see the light, that You can do it thru' me. I trust You for the 2007 ahead, believing that every breath I breathe is for a reason, for a purpose, and nothing is hidden from You sight. Your promise is always Yes, and Amen! It's always for our good! All things Lord, all things work for good for those who loves You..All things, every smile, every sadness, every hurts, every disappointment, every gladness, every opportunities, all things- it's Yours Lord, please use it for Your Glory. Help me to depend on You alone, not my flesh..not what I can do, what You can do thru' me. Gonna trust You Daddy!